What do you expect

When you put the nine month old in charge of blogging, you can only expect a month going by with nothing entered and a whole lot of drool on the keyboard.
I suppose I shouldn't bestow unearned blame on my children, despite the kick I get out of it. In all honesty, life has been feeling (dare I say) more "normal" lately. I've already dictated several blog entries in my head, but life has become BUSY and I find myself distracted with other priorities. I took my doctor's very blunt orders to stop having children and did something about it. I find myself in slow recovery mode again, but with the added benefit that Amanda is doing great and doesn't require the intensive care as she did before. She had clinic today and I told the doctor that she's had her best month in over 18. She's even sleeping better. The doctor told me that the last intense treatment round (which was last October for Amanda) is so hard on the body that it takes a good 6 months to bounce back. This month has given me a glimpse of the energetic, creative, curious, and playful person that Amanda really is, and the hope that it might be part of our life once again. It's nice to have back. During clinic there was a child Amanda's age, new to treatment, screaming at the top of his lungs about how he did not want to be there! It choked me up - it's hard to see. Amanda was the same way at the start of treatment. Clinic days ringed of frustration and fear. I am so grateful to be where we are at in her treatment and to see her strong resiliency. It's a lot easier to have hope now.I really have three beautiful, wonderful children. I'll have to remind myself of this often during roid rage week!