Sunday, November 6, 2011

I am nobody! Who are you?

We are moving on from many things right now. We are moving out of our home at the end of the month. If all goes well we will be living about 5 miles down the road by Christmas. Amanda will be moving out of her gifted and talented program. She has done an amazing job considering her many challenges to keeping up. But it is time to have my children in the same school. We are moving on from fewer medical appointments. Amanda was invited to participate in group therapy for medically involved kids. It felt strange to be back to Primary's after a long 2 month stretch since my last visit. And best of all, we are moving on from cancer. For the first time in three years I can say, I have my daughter back. She looks and acts like herself again. She is happy. She is full of energy. She wants to play. She enjoys every moment that affords her the chance to live life. The remnants of chemotherapy are fading. Her strength is coming back, her coloring is back, the swelling on her face has gone down, she whines less, she laughs more. I can still tell that she is not 100%. But every day we get closer. Compared to her health even two months ago, she has healed so much. I am humbled with tremendous gratitude for the gift of her life that has been granted back to me. We are getting involved in Hope Kids, Make a Wish (still waiting to have her wish granted), Leukemia and Lymphoma Society, and anything else that helps provide a purpose for her and connects her to her cancer in a more positive way. We ventured to Las Vegas last a few weeks ago and had a really good time. It is so nice to be able to get out again.This picture was taken on Labor Day. Compare this to the picture below and notice how much Amanda has grown and how much her face has slimmed down from being off steroids.
This picture shows off a lot of hard work to transform Amanda into Emily Dickinson for her"Images of Greatness" school project. I think she chose Dickinson because she read one of her poems last year and she was really able to relate to Dickinson. The poem is an expression of how she felt about the loneliness and isolation of chemotherapy treatment.

I'm nobody! Who are you?
Are you nobody, too?
Then there's a pair of us — don't tell!
They'd banish us, you know.

How dreary to be somebody!
How public, like a frog
To tell your name the livelong day
To an admiring bog!

-Emily Dickinson